Afraid of Future

“Apa yang kamu cari, mal?”
Saya tahu, mata mereka berkata demikian saat saya mengungkapkan keinginan saya. Aneh. Hidup saya sekarang ini adalah kehidupan yang menyamankan. Safe zone. Bekerja dengan gaji yang baik. Pekerjaan yang menyenangkan. Kolega dan teman kerja yang asyik dan akrab. Apalagi yang saya minta sebenarnya.

Tetapi bukan masa depan macam ini yang saya impikan. Bukan rutinitas dan kehidupan macam ini yang saya petakan. Bukan kehidupan yang terlalu nyaman seperti ini. Aneh. Sekali lagi, aneh. Mata mereka berkata demikian. Menggetarkan tekad saya. Saya tergoda, saya goyah. Continue reading

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My life colours

4824-home-se32This is my song for almost half full year. My ringtone. I think, my reflection too. I have found a lot of meaning inside and I am glad to share the joy I found in it.

I have found my self as a tiny, little, weak, and powerless person. I found my self can’t do anything big either make huge effect like others, especially like president one. I have found society is damage, worse and worst, need hand to change, and I want to be a helping hand. But, even though I give everything what I have,what I can, that never be enough. I am just like a dust in Sahara. Meaningless and useless.

That powerless feeling had been comforted by this song. This song is like considering me, understanding me, even though life seems so untouchable, that’s fine. That kind of feeling and other kind of laughter which I have, give many colors to my life. That’s fine and keep going!

And, voila this is it! Irodori by Mr.Children!! Continue reading

My Romance Style

I hate romantic drama! Apalagi jenis rom-com yang rasanya berisi tipu-tipu dan gombal. No offense lah, maybe it just a taste matter or.. 😉

Karena itu, saya jarang sekali nonton romantic drama. Kalaupun nonton, di tengah jalan di drop. Mungkin akan beda ceritanya jika romancenya hanya bumbu dari melodrama yang penuh balas dendam dan bunuh-membunuh. It sounds more interesting *evil grin.

Maka, drama ini lah yang saya rasa drama yang romance sensenya saya bangeeett, sweet yang nggak pake gombal. Not-so-romantic drama but totally sweet. Manis dan tulus 🙂

“Arigatou” tte tsutae takute anata wo mitsumeru kedo
Tsunagareta migite wa dare yori mo yasashiku hora
Kono koe wo uketometeru

I stare at you, wanting to say thank you
But your right hand holding my left takes in my voice, see
More gently than anyone else* Continue reading

Cinta Tanpa Syarat

Ini malam minggu. Malam yang (katanya) penuh cinta membuat saya ingin menulis tentang cinta. Saya tidak memahami cinta, mungkin karena cinta adalah fenomena hati (qalb) yang metode mengukurnya sangat khas dan khusus. Apa itu cinta?

Saya mencintai membaca sehingga di setiap waktu saya membaca. Tapi, di setiap waktu pun saya bernapas, apakah itu berarti saya mencintai bernapas? Continue reading

My Three Best Songs!

Apa yang membuatmu menyukai sebuah lagu? Singer? Genre lagu? atau makna lagunya?

Saya suka lagu-lagu ballad yang mellow. Bukan apa-apa, rasanya lebih adem dan nggak lonjak-lonjak. Ditambah lagi, suara penyanyinya merduu sekali. Sayangnya lirik lagunya sering depressing 😥

Tapi, di tiga lagu ini bukan genre lagunya yang sama. Lirik lagunya dalem, adem, dan menyemangati saya untuk bangkit, bangun, berdiri, dan berlari. Ini dia, my best three lagu penyemangat yang saya sukai.

Insooni ;)

Insooni 😉

1. A Goose Dream by Insooni

Saya dengar lagu ini tak sengaja saat adik saya menonton drama Korea, Dream High. Saya nggak begitu suka dramanya, tapi saya kepincut dengan arti lagunya. Dann, searchinglah saya original singernya. Insooni!

Pertama kali saya dengar sekaligus baca translasi utuhnya. Saya nangis, meskipun nggak bombay :p
Daleemmmm dan Gue banget!

Ini dia translasinya:

I have a dream,
Even if I’m thrown away or ripped to shreds
Deep in my heart
I have a dream as precious as gem

If by chance, without a reason,
Somebody ridicules me behind my back
I should be patient
I would wait just for that day.

As you always worry,
You say that foolish dreams are poisonous.
Just like a book that tells us about the end of the world
There’s the reality that we can’t turn back already

Yes I have a dream.
I believe in that dream
Please watch over me
Standing in front of that cold wall called fate
I can firmly face it

One day I will pass over that wall
And be able to fly
As high as the sky
This heavy thing called life can’t tie me down
At the end of my life, on the other day that I can smile, let’s be together

Yes I have a dream.
I believe in that dream
Please watch over me
Standing in front of that cold wall called fate
I can firmly face it

One day I will pass over that wall
And be able to fly
As high as the sky
This heavy thing called life can’t tie me down
At the end of my life, on the other day that I can smile, let’s be together

Yes I, I have a dream
I believe in that dream.
Please watch over me
Standing in front of that cold wall called fate.
I can firmly face it

One day I will pass over that wall
And be able to fly
As high as the sky
This heavy thing called life can’t tie me down
At the end of my life, on the other day that I can smile, let’s be together

2. Hanabi by Mr. Children

Kazutoshi Sakurai: the singer-songwriter ^^d

Kazutoshi Sakurai: the singer-songwriter ^^d

Lagu ini mengenalkan saya pada Mr. Children. And now, I like most of their song 😀 Lagu ini adalah OST dari Code Blue. Saya terpukau dengan artinya. Darimana saya tahu? Hampir di setiap drama jepang, subbernya rajin bahkan main OST ataupun insert song diartikan. Dann, jatuh cintalah saya pada artinya. Saya yang merana seperti menemukan ulam. Daisuki desu 🙂

So, this is it

What value left is there
in this world I live in?
I start thinking its all meaningless
or maybe I’m just tired?

In exchange for something I got
I gave up a number of precious things
but it’s not such a peaceful world
that I can lament each and every one.

What kind of dreams should I envision?
What kind of hopes should I take with me as I go forward?
These seemingly impossible to answer questions
Get buried in my day to day life.

If you were here I wonder what you would say?
you’d probably say I was being “gloomy” and have a laugh.
I just wish i could see your gentle smile to blow away my melancholy.

even if it’s a light like fireworks
that can never be caught
one more time, one more time,
one more time, one more time
I want to reach out for it.

We all carry sadness with us
but we hope for a better tomorrow
I wonder to what extent we can love a world
gripped by fear, thrown into unrest?

I get choked up on the words ’cause I think too much
I hate how clumsy I am
Yet oddly enough, I hate more how skillfully I can pretend.

Whether we spend the years laughing or crying
time passes the same for all
the future is calling to us
are you, now, hearing it too?

Even though we knew from the start
that we’d eventually have to say goodbye
one more time, one more time,
one more time, one more time
and as many times as I can I hope to see you again.

I never imagined that simply meeting you
could make the world seem so beautiful
would you laugh at me for being simple minded?
I want to say “thank you” to you from my heart.

I wish my heart flowed fast and smooth like water
so that it would not settle in one place.

For all those times when I need to see you
for those times when I’ll miss you so
one more time, one more time,
one more time, one more time
I want to burn your memory deep in me.

We all have our problems
but we hope for a better tomorrow
I wonder to what extent we can love a world
gripped by fear, thrown into unrest?
one more time, one more time,
one more time, one more time…

Brothers: natsukashi~

Brothers: natsukashi~

3. Satu Perjuangan by Brothers

The last one, nasyid kesukaan saya. Baru saja ba’da  isya tadi saya menyanyikan lagu ini 😉
Lagu ini saya kenal saat kelas dua SMA dan sejak saat itu menjadi nasyid kesukaan saya setelah Sekeping Heningnya The Zikr dan Adakah Quran didalam Hatimunya Snada.

Bukan cuma tentang bangkit dari lumpur yang penat, melainkan juga menyemangari bahwa semua yang kita lakukan ini kembali ke Allah. Jadi, bukan dunia yang kita inginkan, cuma ridho Allah yang kita nantikan. Mari bersama berjuang membangun umat ini :*

Karena Brother itu grup nasyid asal Malay, maka ini dia liriknya..

Syukur Pada Yang Esa
Rahmat PemberianNya
Persaudaraan, Keharmonian

Jalinkan Kasih Sayang
Hulurkanlah Bantuan
Kepada Yang Memerlukannya

Mari Kita Bina Satu Ummah Majujaya
Mula Diri, Keluarga, Sahabat
Masyarakat Dan Negara

Dengan Satu Perjuangan
Satu Arah Tujuan
Di Bawah Rahmat Yang Esa

Kita Melangkah Seiringan
Satu Perjuangan

Rintangan Pasti Melanda
Jangan Undur Walau Selangkah
Teruskan Perjuangan
Hingga Ke Akhirnya
Andai Kau Gugur
Andai Kau Syahid
Kau DiredhaiNya

Saya paling suka bait terakhir lagu ini. Menyemangati, menggairahkan!

Enjoy the song and get on fire! Isshouni gambarimashou!!

Begin A New Start

Everybody have their own slump.

It is what I believe, nobody’s perfect. Everybody can fall, can down, but all of them can rise again, too.  And this what I learn from this two drama.

Seberapa pun dalamnya jurangmu, seberapa pun buruknya masa lalumu, seberapa pun sakit akan penyesalan yang kamu rasakan. Kau selalu bisa memulai sesuatu yang baru. You always have a new start!

Both of them have similar vibe. Bedanya, Joutarou (Ikuta Toma) dalam Osozaki no Himawari menemukan mimpinya justru setelah ia lari dari ketidaknyamanan hidup. Sedangkan Seiji (Kazunari Ninomiya) dalam Freeter Ie O Kau, menemukan mimpi karena ingin membahagiakan Ibunya.

Osozaki no Himawari: Someday my life will bloom like sunflower

Osozaki no Himawari: Someday my life will bloom like sunflower

Osozaki no Himawari bercerita tujuh orang dewasa awal (rataan usia mereka 26 – 30 th, saya jauh lebih muda 😀 ) yang sedang gamang dengan pilihan hidupnya. All of them is main role, tapi.. Ikuta Toma tetaplah main dalam main 😉

Setting drama ini cantik nian, Shimanto. Saya suka sekali sinking bridge dan sungainya yang jernih *iri.

Yang jadi center utama dalam drama ini adalah jangan terpaku dengan masa lalumu, entah sangat suram, entah sangat gemilang hingga serasa terkena waham kebesaran. Masa lalu adalah masa lalu, yang paling penting adalah bagaimana menyikapi masa lalu dan berlari menyongsong masa depan, menyongsong impian. Buat impianmu dan larilah, no matter what it takes.

Freeter Ie o Kau: Get a New Start!

Freeter Ie o Kau: Get a New Start!

Sedangkan Freeter Ie o Kau bercerita tentang Seiji yang pemalas, mudah bosan, tidak suka bekerja keras. Intinya selalu merasa aman dalam comfort zone yang justru merugikan dirinya. Masalahnya baru muncul ketika ia terus-menerus menjadi freeter (pekerja sementara, part-timer) dan Ibunya terkena depresi.

Karena banyaknya konflik keluarga yang mengharu-biru inilah, alasan saya lebih menyukai Freeter daripada Himawari. Saya memang family complex :p

Tag line yang selalu diulang dalam drama ini adalah new start! Dan itulah yang memang selalu harus kita lakukan. Memulai semua bekerjaan dengan semangat yang baru, passion yang baru, hati yang baru.

Kedua drama ini sangat recommended. Terutama untuk yang lagi galau dengan masa depan, gamang dengan mimpi yang tampak jauh dan payah, ataupun yang sedang lelah dengan jalan yang panjang menuju mimpi.

Saya jadi teringat dengan perkataan Nikaido Kahori di episode terakhir Himawari, ‘ I will never give up, no matter how long my way to go because it’s my dream! Atashi no yume datte!’, So do I!!

Have nice watching and let’s strike obstacles and go through your dream! \(^0^)/ \(^0^)/

PS: Listen the OST also. There are Joutoku from Mr. Children as Osozaki no Himawari OST and Hatenai Sora from Arashi as Freeter Ie o Kau OST. I love both :*

Those Who Fight with The Monster Named Reality

Hwuaa~ It’s totally me!

I think so when I read this song translation. Do you think so?

This song become second ending on Bakuman Anime Season 1. I recommend this anime too. Tottemo sugoi!

 

現実という名の怪物と戦う者たち

Genjitsu to iu na no kaibutsu to tatakau monotachi
(Those who fight with the monster named reality)

Performed by: Takahashi Yuu
Lyrics & Composition: Takahashi Yuu
Arrangement: Asada Shinichi

 

I’d always wondered why I’m the only one in such pain
Only the people around me appeared to be fortunate
But after I spoke to you I felt a little better, but just a little
Maybe it’s because you confessed something similar

The reality unseen in faces is sometimes, like monsters,
Surging in to try to knock down our aspirations

I can say from my heart, I’m glad we met; people increase
While relishing in that warmth
We support, not submit, and surely we are on the way
To reaching where no one could reach alone

There are those who laugh that it’s a pity party, or purist
Until a while ago I thought so too
But when there are people who I can believe in, the days become a little brighter
And I know that I’ve become stubborn

Somehow I know for a fact that we can’t be together forever
But for now we can take each others’ hands

In the scenes I imagine you’re definitely smiling
Relishing in the same joy

Placing trust, being more angry than someone, we’re surely
Going through time which no one could pass alone

After you’ve counted what you’ve lost
Try counting the hope you have now and the light you’ll attain from now

I can say from my heart, I’m glad we met; people increase
While relishing in that warmth
We support, not submit, and surely we are on the way
To reaching where no one could reach alone

 

You can listen this song in http://www.jpopasia.com/play/32740/yu-takahashi/genjitsu-to-iu-na-no-kaibutsu-to-tatakau-monotachi.html

Thanks to http://theotherice.wordpress.com/ for translating this great song.

Let’s fight this monster and win this with our dream!